you know what? i think i'm going crazy...

why is my life so fast paced? i don't like the way i'm living...i feel like i'm forced to grow up...or perhaps i grew up too quickly...

i hate people who are fucking blunt. i can't stand it. believe me, i'll verbally attack anyone who's not tactful with me or the people whom i know.

i'm 17, goin on 18, why can't i lead my own life and make my own decisions without gaining consent?! they're liberal but to a certain extent. sometimes i wanna plan my own future, to really do what i dream of doin, to earn big bucks in a short amt of time..but i feel so very restricted.

it's like i want to grow up and i don't want to at the same time. i feel like i haven't played enough...but at the same time i wanna see myself being independent. i don't wanna be a parasite that sucks their savings account dry...but why does he..notice i didn't say they anymore...why does he still in a way restricts me from growing up?

i'm feeling so bloody lost...